Sunday, November 18, 2007

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Humanitarian Efforts
post date:
2007-07-20 22:50:21
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I'm never going to do as much as I'd like to. I'm never going to take away the pain. Its an impossible task. But maybe, if I give one moment of surcease, that will be the moment that somebody will look back on and hold on to.So this is the story of 666. Some people are sensative to it. I used to be. I'm not anymore. I fully acknowledge the forces of emptiness and their need to feed. Its not scary, its just part of life. I had it in my power today to take that number out of a person's life. It cost me a bit of my own money, but who am I to step back from an easy fix? People want so much to be in control. How can you be in control if you can't identify the enemy? How soothing is it to find a mere number to fear? I fear for my friend. My very best friend. Doctors don't know whats wrong with her. There is no number to cower from. There's only pathology and testing. I'm sure an excellent mathmatician would be able to boil down all the presenting symptoms and findings and offer a number.I reached out in my fear. I'm not sorry I did. The result doesn't matter. I had enough faith in people to at least try. I don't have a number to shrink from. I'd feel so much more powerful if I did. But there are things to be learned from helplessness. Patience, faith, hope.

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